urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilightTails of a WolfyMissa Alamasytwilight_ice_princess@yahoo.comMissa Alamasy2009-09-24T07:25:52Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:11958Still Alive!2009-09-24T07:25:52Z2009-09-24T07:25:52ZPortal song comes to mind at my title...<br /><br />Oy!<br /><br />I'm still alive...<br /><br />Working way too damned much!<br /><br />Vanlla...my cavalier died on me... well sorta my feul pump with and after dropping $300 in that bitch lol I ended up finding out it had a blown headgasket!<br /><br />In an attempt to lol make my new car 99' Sunfire... Last a bit longer... He's been fondly named after my mechanic.... Kitty/Derby!<br /><br />Which thankfully so far my mechanic hasn't had to touch. I'll eventually get new plugs and wires and I am thinking about an oil change before winter hits and I'll need snow tires but other then that. I'm content with my lil red car although its not the mustang I want and I sure as hell miss Vanillas sunroof lol but he gets me around with no problem and we travel a lot back and forth to PA<br /><br />*hides from her mechanic when he sees mileage already put on it*<br /><br />Anyways I'm thinking about skipping the furry fall weekend unless for some reason I pull off getting Saturday off then I might rock up for one night. See how everyone is and then bounce back before I gotta be at work on Sunday.<br /><br />Lifes been interesting reading a couple good books. Still playing my WoW.<br /><br />Thinking about getting an X-box 360....<br /><br />I wanna make a trip to Cleveland in a few weeks provided lol I can get my mechanic to sign my premission slip!<br /><br />I wanna drop by see some friends... Hunt down some Godiva...<br /><br />Thinking of chocolate... O_O I've become obsessed with finding the perfect cheesecake truffle...<br /><br />>.< Not that any of this helps my morning work out...<br /><br />Imma eventually just cave and go sign up for the Gym up the street...<br /><br />Provided I can find time between work and sleep!<br /><br />I'm also hunting for good music... I've been burning a couple cds for the road trips intending to take and lol I'm in need of good things to listen to!<br /><br />Ah well 3:30 in the morning I need to sleep need to be at work early!<br /><br />Night night<br /><br /><br /><3 the wolfess Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:11548Waking2009-08-31T13:54:56Z2009-08-31T13:54:56ZMy dreams are coming stronger... something big is goin to happen...<br /><br />I'm starting my A+ certification I need to do a lot of at home studying and the books are going to cost small fortune but they will totally be worth it.<br /><br />I'm moving to Australia...<br /><br />I'm chasing my dreams. <br /><br />I had four hours of sleep this morning my dreams woke me from my usual 7-8 hour nights sleep... the sleep I require every night... and I'm horrible at waking up .. they pulled me awake at the exact moment I needed to be awake in order to have a very important conversation...<br /><br />I'm doing great everythings got so much better.<br /><br />I'm going to make it<br /><br />And for the first time in a long time I'm not afraid...urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:11371Starting something...2009-08-19T07:59:00Z2009-08-19T07:59:00ZWell I've finally been dragged into it often enough... Seems I'll be assisting some one in stopping some sexual harrassment. Time some one paid...<br /><br />*sighs*<br /><br />Legally that is....<br /><br />And through the nose...<br /><br />Silly children and their games money usually wins in these situations and I'm a bit far off from hurting...<br /><br />Means I'll have to put off getting partial though... I'll have to just contact Skoo and let her know. As much as I'd love to... Its not going to happen. This is far more important that my wants to go costuming. <br /><br /><br />So much hate and court battles going on. As an update they are talking jailtime for the guy harrassing my friend. So if he goes to prison we may see her back on LJ!!!!!!! ^_^<br /><br />Talked with Shaun today we kicked around the idea of us moving to Cleveland... Dunno about that though... <br /><br />I want my OWN place away from drama I'll be getting my car soon enough and as soon as I'm done with this court nonsense I'll be getting my own place yey!<br /><br />Going to Omaha Nebraska at the end of the month kinda a late birthday present to myself. Getting paid to do it too. Love my second job!<br /><br />We intend to party!<br /><br />Off to bed boyfriend is yelling at me to get there o_o its only four in the morning!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:11236Messy2009-08-11T17:28:09Z2009-08-11T17:32:07ZI'm messed up a bit emotionally from my mom being in the hospital a big part of me feels responsible for it. I can rationalize out that it isn't my fault. I've had a lot of people tell me so. It just doesn't change my heart. I keep telling the world I'm okay but I don't think I really am with the way I'm acting. <br /><br />I'm torn between being upset and being angry. I guess it is to be expected.<br /><br />I think It will just take time.<br /><br />Work has been interesting I'm a firm believer people need to take an IQ test for just about everthing these days including having a cellphone.<br /><br />I mean its nothing compared to the crazy lady who told me the government was watching her.<br /><br />But this lady tried to tell me she was being doublebilled for something she had already had an adjustment for.<p>Just tired of dumb people...<br /><br />I am trying to get it together and Grym is coming to see me today I'm excited to be seeing my best friend of like forever. He's pretty good at cheering me up.<br /><br />I have to go do a bit of laundry ended up buying new sheets and dad got new curtains I want to wash them before I put them on the bed and windows... sheets on bed of course and curtains on windows.<br /><br /><br />New frames make me look like even more of a crazy cat lady but I can totally dig the red color.<br /><br />Anyways this song has been in my head... So enjoy<br /><br /><br />Light On - David Cook<br /><br /><br />Never really said too much<br />Afraid it wouldnt be enough<br />Just try to keep my spirits up<br />When theres no point in grieving<br />Doesnt matter anyway<br />Words could never make me stay<br />Words will never take my place<br />When you know Im leaving<br /><br />Try to leave a light on when Im gone<br />Something I rely on to get home<br />One I can feel at night<br />A naked light, a fire to keep me warm<br />Try to leave a light on when Im gone<br />Even in the daylight, shine on<br />And when its late at night you can look inside<br />You wont feel so alone<br /><br />You know weve been down that road<br />What seems a thousand times before<br />My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons<br />That roll out underneath my heels<br />And you dont know how bad it feels<br />To leave the only one that I have ever believed in<br /><br />Sometimes it feels like weve run out of luck<br />When the signal keeps on breaking up<br />When the wires cross in my brain<br />Youll start my heart again<br />When I come along <br /><br /> </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:10989Tired2009-08-10T00:58:45Z2009-08-10T00:58:45ZSo to update my mother is in the hospital.<br /><br />I'm not writing why here as those who are a bit closer to me have my myspace and know why. <br /><br />I wanted to post to address some other drama in my life. AS IF I DONT BLOODY HAVE ENOUGH!<br /><br />Several people have asked me about the NEOFurs and why I quit a forum I spent some time during AC and during this summer helping recruit for and assisting in getting meets and things together.<br /><br />Well it started with drama. An awesome Mod and I talked everyone into leaving a particular fur alone and Derby woud leave everyone else alone. Yet, people don't know how to just stop. <br /><br />Derby is no saint, but he didn't deserve to have his real name, address, and telephone number all over the internet. Some people were incredibly happy that this happened. Now this got me thinking. What if it was my telephone number or my address on the line? Its kinda scary it reminds me why we keep guns in the house. Why I've known since I was five how to load, aim, and pull that trigger. I'd never go down without a fight if some one attacked me/stalked me because some one decided to post my contact info on the web. <br /><br />Making a note now this is if I was threatened in my own home, if some one came after me, I have no intention to go out and hurt anyone or anything. I'm a very passive person unless threatened. Then well... ask your gods for forgiveness...<br /><br />I get caught up in the illusion that people of the furry fandom are all friends. <br /><br />It took the NEOfurs drama to remind me that none are until the trust is earned and even then people will throw you over for a larger group of people in a heartbeat for that is how the furry fandom is these days and there is no changing it. I am choosing to not be apart of that part of it so I left.<br /><br />And so I am permanently done with the NEOFurFandom and the drama that came from it.<br /><br />KangaKara is doing okay she's got a restraining order and they think they'll make the case stick. She's another friend of mine who had something similar happen like Derby did where some guy called her all sorts of things and posted her RL info on websites. They are mounting a case against the guy. It looks like she had her LJ deleted so in case anyone wants to contact her message me on MSN I'll help you get in contact.<br /><br />So on to other things. If your reading this and you live on the PA/OH border area we are starting up a small place where we can post meetups and things. As I am done with anything NEOFur. I've still lol got a couple furs there I'd like to hang with but there is a specific group of females that well I think after all was said and done I've nothing bad to say about them though I'm sure my name is on their tongues and they have many cross words to say about me... I believe I am better off staying away from and letting that forum keep their drama queens. (Drama Queen being implied by they themselves in other posts I've read)<br /><br />And so I'm going to make some chicken fried rice and chillax with some tea and my favorite movie.<br /><br />Boyfriend should be calling soon so got to get stuff cooked quick!<br /><br /><3 Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:10614Sleeeeeeeeeepy2009-07-11T14:52:37Z2009-07-11T14:52:37ZI hate Saturdays my work schedule is noon until 8:30... but other days of the week its from 2:30 till eleven... this one early day throws me off so much and time just doesn't want to seem to stop!<br /><br />Oh pictures and stuff will be edited and up on the forums and youtube when I get a day off which I think is tueday!<br /><br />Still need those people to contact me I don't know how much failtube will let me put up on their site this year sooooo ya let me burn you a disc save me the e-rant about how bad youtube has become.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:10245Partial!2009-07-09T16:53:38Z2009-07-09T16:53:38ZSooooo....<br /><br /><br />On the note of a partial ^_^ <br /><br />I talked to Skookum our resident NEOfur and awesome maker of tails and fursuits.<br /><br /><br />Andddddddd<br /><br />I have to drop by her house in a couple weeks to get measurements done for my partial!<br /><br /><br />*happy dances*<br /><br /><br />On the note of my livejournal I quit posting here because of drama but as I saw the drama kinda moved to myspace so I'll be right back here for a minute. Either way ^_^<br /><br /><br />OMG Jeff our convention got raided by Yupyups!!!!!!!!<br /><br />I followed them around for a bit and had a fun life as they ran into things and pissed off the guy dressed up as Doctor Who because they didn't wanna stop and play with him!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:10208Anthrocon 20092009-07-08T20:00:59Z2009-07-08T20:00:59Z<br />As I have lost touch with certain furs who I promised pictures and footage of from Anthrocon. I am posting here. In hopes I can get some numbers and email addresses.<br /><br /><p> </p><p>I'd like to say the con was successful. I was drunk off my ass a good portion of the time. I even lol spent my evenings with my ex Vanilla having fun, drinking, and playing pool. It was nice to have some one who I was kinda close to. And he was even kind enough to make sure I got back to my hotel. Remind me Jack and Cokes and Heineken are a good mix because I was perfectly fine the next morning. Got up and did it all over again.<br /><br />I got a flying turtle this year his name is Turtledove despite all the other names people tried to come up with. I also had a lot of fun and drank it up with the NEOfurs who all seem insanely cool. I was a good wolf this year and really only flirted with a couple of the NEOfur boys. Gods did I miss Roj. But I did see Kyle and his mate who lol poor Kyle had to put up with me hugging him constantly. <br /><br />I was sad Smokey didn't make it I was hoping to have a couple drinks with him but I did get to see him at the end of the con which kinda made my day. I saw his gf too who is very beautiful! ^_^ I'm so happy for him.<br /><br />My last morning there I ended up saying goodbye to all the NEOfurs and lol at random walked up and hugged Kier. I missed seeing Whitewer because a friend I hadn't seen in a couple years was like OMG MISSA and I was like OMG YOOOO! And we pounced each other.<br /><br />I figure couple more paychecks I'll have enough for the car I want. <br /><br />Next Anthrocon I want a partial. I might have one by the Furry Fall Weekend. Which I AM Going to happily! Mayeb furfright as well.<br /><br />My birthday is coming up too I'm not sure what I'm gonna do for it but I'll think of something.<br /><br /><br />Umm ya so AC Was EPIC and I had no self esteem issues whatsoever. I think I've finally worked through all the problems I've had in the past and I'm getting better. <br /><br />I probably shouldn't have written this much on a blog I never post to but! ^_^ I am looking for some furs I lost contact with! So ya... Heres an update and CONTACT ME PLOX<br /><br />Missa__@hotmail.com<br /> </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:4001Moving on2005-11-03T01:37:54Z2005-11-03T01:37:54ZI think I am finally at the point of moving on... Wish me luck... Gonna keep trying!<br /><br />~Missa Recoveringurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:3739Here...2005-10-28T06:12:58Z2005-10-28T06:12:58ZStill here still surviving... eating more since friend has been hovering over me. Making sure I sleep even once or twice making me eat by informing the group of people I work with that I had not eaten all day then handing me food. He means very well... Glad to know some one cares. Well the snow kitty replied something and while I have to accept his apology because well I am that kind of wolfy I just dont know if he knows how hard it is to move on from all this. I keep telling the people I talk to that there is just an empty space in my life... But I am coping better... throwing myself into my work. But everything seems to just be breaking me lately. Hurt my shoulder pretty badly at work. Boss made me feel like it was my fault for getting hurt. I just wanna go back to work. I am going to talk to Twilia tomorrow and tell her that it isn't Target's fault its mine and that I will be back at work tomorrow and there wont be any problems despite the pain. I cant afford to lose my job and cant afford to miss anymore hours of work. It is really screwing me up I wont even make twenty hours this week. I dunno how bad next paycheck is gonna be I think I might take Jeff up on his offer and move in with him things would be a lot cheaper... I dunno... I am very confused and tired and I have a lot to do tomorrow and argh this is just gonna be a bad night...<br /><br />~Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:3536Lack of Closure2005-10-12T17:05:21Z2005-10-12T17:05:21ZBeing left with a lack of closure I dunno what to do much anymore... Not sleeping right or eating right. I think I have ended up a lot like my sister and the Rob thing. Well... Sorta... Rob at least we knew was going to leave her and even now she admits that she knew in her heart too. He ignores me when he is online he hasn't called nor does he want to. I was upset... but I messaged him saying not anymore and... While I didn't apologized I asked him several times to be man enough to just face me. I don't think he is gonna... All his poems everything said to me... All of it a lie... It's upsetting and heart wrenching I got to find a way to get over this... I know in the end if AJ makes him happy then let it be... I am just one of them people where my own needs always are runner up to everyone elses... I wonder if that is a good or bad thing? The thing about all this is I was working really hard not for myself but for that snow leopard as well. And now with him gone I hope I can continue to do what I am doing without that prize at the end of the rough journey? I wonder if I am strong enough to do it. I know in my heart I told AJ the truth I want them to be happy... But this feeling of hopelessness and hurting just isn't going to go away very easy. I wish I knew what to do or how to make the pain stop. I don't think anyone ever means to hurt anyone but it happens and well since I think Chris is completely ignoring me well he'll never see this post or any of my other ones after this. I have been thinking about things and maybe I should just really harden my heart on this. How could I have been so blind about the subject? I mean if he cheated on Rob with me what was going to stop him from doing the same. All the guys that I had been hanging out with I was proud to tell them no thanks I have a man and he is coming home soon. So many rejected offers for a man who wasn't even ment to be mine to begin with. Maybe I was just being a hopeless romantic. That he'd come out of the Job Core and really buckle down and get a good job and live happily and start a family and love me forever. Guess it isn't going to happen... Don't get me wrong journal I am happy for AJ gosh is that boy absolutely wonderful and I pray Chris doesn't hurt him ever. I hope some one finds happiness where I couldn't. I will miss my snow kitty always and about this time had things not have gone terribly wrong out son would have been six months. I guess I held onto him so long because of that mainly... Prehaps its a poor excuse for two people to hold onto each other or well pretend to... I don't think I will ever forget that snow leopard or our cub Christopher James Proper who do to my own stresses and malnuritment did not make it past his second month and a half of life. Such is the way of life I guess... Maybe some day I'll succesfully have cubs of my own again and be able to replace the family I lost until then...<br /><br />~Hurting Always<br /><br />Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:3196Upset2005-10-03T20:31:57Z2005-10-03T20:31:57ZWell this certainly ends my relationship with the snow leopard... joy and such to him I guess... Loved finding out that AJ is still the love of his life... loved finding out we are both being played... Can't wait for Shawn to give me AJ's number and I call him personally and tell him every detail in its entirety...<br /><br />~Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:2983Dreaming2005-08-18T14:05:44Z2005-08-18T14:05:44ZWhen I dream these days its in snatches and it makes me wonder what is going on in the world to disrupt my dreaming so? Prehaps it is because I am overworking myself to attempt to get by and get out on my own. Prehaps it is my slightly torn heart between my family and my need to be alone. I don't know but it has not yet affected my ability to see things. I am actually to the point now where I can control whether I see in energy or not. It is rather amazing and I think it may either be a result of my birthday coming up in eight days or it is this city by the lake. I know the snatches of my dreams were untrue to a point. Prehaps they were drawing up some old memory of a time when I was with that specific person. I know that we will not be together again but it like every man I have ever told I love you to and ment it he will always be in my heart. Fond of these few men and women I now call friends I wonder if I will ever truly have a whole heart to give to the man I am ment to be with? Argh... Deep thoughts for a morning mind... I am so sleepy... but yet somewhat at peace after my dreams. I saw last night St. Sophia... The church that is... Before it was destroyed by the barbarians and their ransacking of the great cities. Everything trimmed in gold and the beauty of the paintings on the walls was astonishing. A war between heaven and hell... the Procession of the Magi... So many things... I guess when I get glimpses of these things into the past I realize how much I long for the life my mother once offered me. I was young and foolish and turned it down... Prehaps if the opportunity arises again I will take it and my mate with me. Anyways... enough of this... I am going to nap I have six hours before work and I intend to sleep them away!<br /><br />~Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:2810After work2005-08-17T18:04:05Z2005-08-17T18:04:05ZWell I am here after work... I had like some marshmallow ice cream cones and a piece of beef jerky for lunch lol needs to say I am famished? X_x I need to start packing a normal healthy lunch the extra sugar rush inspired me to walk up to Marc's get milk cause we are out and to walk home all the way really fast I think I made it from Marc's to home in a matter of five minutes... It woulda been less but I stopped to chat with Mike and Mathew who were out looking for Pepsi cans for cedar point... Its an Ohio thing... But yeah... Today at work was okay... I hadn't blow dried my hair this morning so I was totally unprepared for work today lol... When packaging things we have to shrink plastic around the basket and wine and stuff... and like... we use this blow dryer looking thing and usually in the mornings drying my hair helps me be a little bit more prepared for the day... I think I am really starting to get the hang of this job though. Tomorrow I have to work at Target... I am dreading it... but kinda excited... X_x don't mind me I am just in a weird mood today and kinda hyper... Anyways home from work and bored as all hell... Think I might go on a sock hunt seeing as how I couldn't find my white ones this morning! ^_^ Wub my Snow kitty!<br /><br />~Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:2543Looking back2005-08-16T13:21:01Z2005-08-16T13:21:01ZWell looking back at my posts I am wondering what the hell happened to my updates... :( Means I didn't get my thing sent out to Jenny! SORRY HUN I DIDN'T FORGET YOUR BIRTHDAY! Anyways... I uh well I am gonna be late for work so I had better update this when I get back... Probably will be about 2 or 3ishurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:2072Where I been2005-07-23T19:18:25Z2005-07-23T19:18:25ZWell I have been here and there working odd jobs trying to scrape together money to buy pants and get my own place. Life has just been one big blah lately. I know when I do get my own place I am gonna need to work my schedule around my nephews so he can come stay with me. I am trying to get back into college so I can get some sort of career going but the thing is I don't know what I want to go in for. I would not mid going for pre-law but right now auto mechannics is looking pretty kick ass because of some of the things my friends said. No one around here knows anything about cars and might be a good thing I take up a skill that everyone can benifet from and my dad would like it. I think I am going to call Ken and see what he thinks. I really would not mind going to school for something like that they need more women in the field. To my snow kitty I don't know where you are or what your doing but I hope your alright. I really do miss hearing from you. I pray your safe and you still have a place to stay when your ready.<br /><br />~Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:1851Meeting Grandma2005-06-13T22:11:41Z2005-06-13T22:11:41ZI met the kid's grandma today and well I have never had a stranger encounter with an older person before in my life. She came to get Crystal to go do something with a sowing machine but Crystal was on the computer so me and Mathew suffered the full frontal assult of a grandma who didn't know when to just let a kid be a kid. While I agree me and my nephew should have probably done more today other then go out and play with the dogs and play video games it is just his second week of summer! Poor kid is still trying to relax from his busy school year in second grade. She told me to make sure that he has an hour outside of recreational time and a half hour of reading everyday. The reading I understand because he is in a summer book program but other then that. I mean if its raining we won't be doing nothing and the pool I finally learned was open. And like we are going to try to find some stuff to do around here but there isn't much. But this lady talked to me like I was two. At first I thought there was something wrong with her and she had to explain herself in detail but then I realized she was pretty much talking down to me and if my nephew hadn't been there I probably would have blasted her. It was so disrespectful and demeaning and I live here too ya know and she doesn't do much with the kids in the first place unless their father takes them. Gah I guess I am just venting gonna go eat dinner. I am really sorry about missing talking to my snowkitty today. I am starting to miss him...<br /><br />Love always Missa the wolfe!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:1664Semi Decent Day2005-06-12T21:13:11Z2005-06-12T21:13:11ZWell I am having a semi decent day I have been more open with my family and trying to be friendly around my sisters'boyfriend's exwife and daughter. I don't think I am coming off very friendly though because I am here on the computer not doing much of anything as far as socializing goes. I kinda know that my sister is talking to the lady about me I can't quite remember their names. I am terrible with names though. I have been thinking about my stay in NY and all the stuff that had happened to me I am really starting to feel somewhat homesick for NY and the quiet little corner of Penn Yan I called home. I miss the dogs Annabell, Chewy, and Mystic, and the cats Psycho and Kiki. I miss being able to walk in the park down by the lake and watch the seagulls and the geese. The city is so noisy and I have been longing for the quiet life again. I have had this constant headache lately I can't ever seem to get rid of when I am awake and it only seems to ease up when I put my hair down but I have to keep it up outside because it is so hot. Stevie hasnt been taken to well to being isolated to living in the basement I think he misses the outdoors but I am to scared to let him outside because of the railroad tracks being right next to the house. I don't know what to do and I wish I could make him happy. I am going to the Social Security office tomorrow to attempt to get my SS card. I really need it then I can get my birth certificate. I want to start work as soon as I can and get some fans for the attic because it gets so hot up there and then maybe with any luck get myself a bed because the couch is really starting to suck! There is suposed to be some guy moving into the basement soon and I can only hope he doesn't mind Stevie because my cat would not be able to survive anywhere else. Oh well I am sure things will work out till then I am waiting for the guests to leave and everyone else to go upstairs which I am sure they will then I wanna get some more ham from dinner because it was wonderful and I have this thing where ham is like something I horde because when I lived in NY its the only type of meat they usually cooked. I guess i am weird or something anyhow...<br /><br />Love my snowkitty always and forever<br /><br />Missa da Wolfeurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:1534Staying up late2005-06-11T05:32:41Z2005-06-11T05:32:41ZWell I am staying up late tonight since everyone else is doing something else besides being on the computer. I am kind of enjoying it tonight although I really don't know what to write. I am trying out some new RP ideas on the forums but none of them seem to be working or well no one likes responding. Anyhow I guess I am just bored and yiffy all at the same time it kinda sucks my snow kitty is so far away. If he were here I'd have him on his back in a heartbeat... Erf... Anywho... Yeah must get mind off raping of my snow kitty... X_x Think clean thoughts... Fall...Leaves...Rakes...Night... Okay that didn't help because I came up with I'd love to fall into the leaves with my snow kitty and rake my claws over his back while we make love all night. >.> Okay thats it I am ending this entry before I get into trouble!<br /><br />Love always Missa Wolfyurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:1097Making Dinner2005-06-08T23:28:32Z2005-06-08T23:28:32ZWell I am here in Cleveland and I have not only been assigned to babysitting duty I am also kinda on dinner duty I don't mind it so much but like I am a bit shy to be cooking for people I mean what if they don't like what I make? My taco meat turned out to be a bit runny and I am still waiting for my spanish rice to soften! Arg I was always bad at making rice... The cupcakes I almost burned which kinda sucked but I salvaged them the best I could... As you can tell we are having mexican for dinner sister went out an hour ago to go to the store to get some stuff for chips and all but really not sure where she is cause it is just up the street. Not that I mind but my dad is here tonight and he got on my case some but thats fathers for you! Oh well I wanted to say I love you my Snow Leopard! And I really miss you and hope everything goes better for you tomorrow gonna get my pic tomorrow and send it to you! ^_^ Love you so much I think my sis might be home so I am gonna go check that blasted rice and prehaps by now it will have softened! <br /><br />Love always your wolfy Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:1022WOOF! I'm in Cleveland2005-06-05T05:32:00Z2005-06-05T05:32:00ZWoof! I made it to Cleveland. I was really nervous but I made it out without having to face my one roomie who originally took me to NY. Well now I am here in the big city and I am going to go get my birth certificate and everything. I am still not used to eating so much I think I ate more today then I have in the past two weeks. I am a bit sick right now but well its kinda a good thing cause no one is up and I can freely type on the computer. I have a feeling I am not gonna get much sleep tonight. Friday I met a wonderful fox named Tim he was an absolute gentleman and made my stay in NY worth it. Went to Pizza Hut then spent the entire evening at a park on the lake. Goddess it was gorgeous and we listened to the waves and in the end he asked me premission to give me a hug. I couldn't believe it! No one except my snow kitty had ever treated me like I wasn't some damaged good. And the interesting thing was he knew all about me and how bad my past is and he still treated me wonderfully. I don't think I ma ever going to forget him or the kindness he showed me and I hope one day to move back to NY cause it is sooooo pretty there. It's really muggy here in Cleveland I don't know why or if that is the reason I am sick or if it is because of the taco bell I ate earlier. Stevie seems happy tonight but then again I'd be happy too if I could finally get out of my cage after a five hour drive ontop of an hours worht of pitstops. We have him in the basement cause my little nephew is allergic to cats. I feel kinda bad he is and I talked to Stevie tonight and told him after here it will be our last move for a long time! My next goal is a place for me and my mate and my Stevie. Oh well gonna go watch anime they didn't have cartoon network in NY strangely and I missed so much. I am going to edit my profile on pounce and with any luck might me some Cleveland furries very soon! Love you always snow kitty!<br /><br /><br />~Your Wolfy Missaurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:666Getting Ready2005-06-03T16:46:51Z2005-06-03T16:46:51ZWell I am getting ready right now slowly but surely for tonight when my friend is coming to take me out. Bit nervous and all because well I am shy around new people. I think I am going to wear a pair of blue jeans and my black tank top since it is pretty warm out today and it is suposed to be nice out. He is suposed to be here around 8:30ish and so I don't cause trouble with my roomies I am going down to the park to meet him. I guess I am a bit sneaky like that. I am hoping my one roomie leaves before I have to walk down so I don't get questioned where I am going. I have this feeling he would get uber jealous if I told him my friend was going to take me out for dinner. I wonder how everything is going to go tomorrow? I am a bit worried that my sister won't find the house. I hope I don't have any confrontation with anyone. I do plan on sending them some money though for allowing me to stay here for a month. It's only right, right? I am grateful for having a place to stay for a month and being able to sort my head out and get away from stress. It was relaxing but tomorrow I am going to be happy to be back in the chaos of things.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icetwilight:387Today2005-06-02T16:55:50Z2005-06-02T16:55:50ZToday is the day I start my journal I am a bit nervous I don't like doing these sorts of things but well its for my mate Artemis and I'd do absolutely anything for him. I am not really sure what to put here but I know that I will start to think of things as the days go on and maybe the posts here will be more interesting other then what I had for lunch which was a PB&J sandwhich go me! Um hm... I am getting ready to move to Ohio for awhile with my older sister I can't wait things are going to be so exciting and I have my friend taking me out to dinner tomorrow to enjoy my last night in New York I am kind of excited about that I hope everything goes well.